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She took her cell, from the table and went to her room.It was 2 pm, and normally she would have felt of taking a nap by this time, but today was different.She checked the phone. It was on ringing mode.She checked the volume. It was maximum.so everything seemed prepared.she took the newspaper and started scanning the pages.every now and then, she kept peeping at the cell, as if her sight would make it ring.But that didnt happen. She again checked the phone, it was working, showing full signal.battery was fully charged.Nothing could be wrong, barring the call.She looked at the watch, it was 2.30.Half an hour had seemed like ages today. she kept the newspaper aside having had already scanned it 10 times within last half an hour.suddenly a brilliant idea appeared to her.she went to the almirah and took out the bundle of photo albums. she came back to her bed and started scanning them one by one.unlike the newspaper she was very religious in scanning the album, with zero probability of missing out any pic.she had repeated this exercise 1000 times but still it made her smile, everytime just like the first time. memories are yours, and no one can ever snatch them from you no matter whatever means one employs."its hard to see"
She watched him sitting in front of her, and savouring his lunch, as if that was his only objective in this earth, unaware of all the hassles and tumults of the outside world.But somehow she always cherished this sight.
“Knock knock”, she heard the door opening.
She jumped out of the bed.
She had fallen asleep, not sure when.
Immediately, she checked the phone, it showed no missed calls.
She checked the time.
It was 5.30 pm.
She had slept for 3 hours.
Sheetal had come.
“Hi mummy,” Sheetal said with a smile.
“Hi, how was your day,” she asked.
“Tiring, very tiring,” sheetal replied while letting her body fall on the bed before her.
“I will get you some water,” she said and made a move.
“Thanks mom, and by the way, akash called in the afternoon, he had reached there safely and on time.”, sheetal said.
She felt relieved but not very sure why she didn’t felt happier from inside.
May be she was expecting a call for her too.
She nudged off the thought with a smile and proceeded towards the kitchen.
“He will call me when free from office stuffs.
He must be so busy for giving a long call and I am fussing about the personal calls.
He is fine and that is enough for me.”, She kept circling around her thoughts while performing the daily chores.
But somehow she still wished if only he could have called her.
That night the dinner was quite silent.
Olny two of them.
Sheetal tried to hit some topics here and there but in vain.
Both were missing akash dearly.
It was the first time he was out on an assignment after marriage so was even more difficult for sheetal.
It was already 11, with heavy legs she moved towards her room, adueing good night to sheetal when se heard her phone ringing.
It was definitely akash.
She knew it.
Enthusiastically she picked up the phone.
Yes, it was akash.
“Hi mom, how are you.”, she heard his voice.
“I am fine akku, how are you, when did you reach, how was the flight..”,
“Hey wait wait mom, everything is fine here I already told sheetal about everything, you don’t worry and take proper rest.”
She found her flurry of questions interrupted.
“Yes, I got my eye sight checked..”
“Hey sorry mom, actually I am in a kind of hurry, is sheetal around there, I cannot reach her phone.”
“ya, wait for a second, sheetal!! ” she called
“Akash here”.
Sheetal came running and almost snatched the phone from her hand.
She knew it was her time to move back.
“May be I would talk after sheetal, I have to tell him so many things,” she thought to herself and waited for her time, which actually never came.
“You want to talk to mom?, she is here.”
She heard sheetal whispering.
She couldn’t here what akash said but saw sheetal disconnecting the phone.
She started for the bedroom.
She knew the night was going to be long, and indeed it was.
There were no calls further that night, no further photo album sessions, just staring in the deep abyss, as if assimilating his entire life in those two eyes.
Next day was Sunday, and she knew sheetal wont be going to office.
Her sleep got interrupted by the knock at the door.
The maid was here.
“Akash babu ka phone hai,” she announced.
“Sheetal uthi nhin kya, unko do”, she replied politely.
“madam toh kab kee uth gayee, but akash babu aapko pooch rahe hain,” she said while handling her the phone.
She couldn’t believe her ears, but whatever it was, se felt the tinge of happiness mixed with emotions surging out from her heart through her eyes.
“Good morning mom,” she heard him saying just the way he used to say few years back.
“Sorry kal meeting mein jana thha toh baat nahin kar paya,
Kal maine Sheetal se baat kar lee hai, aap dono ka passport visa ke liye agent lene aa jaega
Main aap logo ke bina nahin rah sakta.
As she heard him she couldnt but but feel her moist eyes.
“haan aap kal eyetest kee baat kar rahi thhi?,” he asked.
“Haan beta….”
Then started a conversation that went on for ever, atleast she felt so.
Standing behind the doors, sheetal smiled as she saw her talking on phone.
“I wont let her miss him, atleast till the time we don’t go there,” she said to herself and moved out.
She watched him sitting in front of her, and savouring his lunch, as if that was his only objective in this earth, unaware of all the hassles and tumults of the outside world.But somehow she always cherished this sight.
“Knock knock”, she heard the door opening.
She jumped out of the bed.
She had fallen asleep, not sure when.
Immediately, she checked the phone, it showed no missed calls.
She checked the time.
It was 5.30 pm.
She had slept for 3 hours.
Sheetal had come.
“Hi mummy,” Sheetal said with a smile.
“Hi, how was your day,” she asked.
“Tiring, very tiring,” sheetal replied while letting her body fall on the bed before her.
“I will get you some water,” she said and made a move.
“Thanks mom, and by the way, akash called in the afternoon, he had reached there safely and on time.”, sheetal said.
She felt relieved but not very sure why she didn’t felt happier from inside.
May be she was expecting a call for her too.
She nudged off the thought with a smile and proceeded towards the kitchen.
“He will call me when free from office stuffs.
He must be so busy for giving a long call and I am fussing about the personal calls.
He is fine and that is enough for me.”, She kept circling around her thoughts while performing the daily chores.
But somehow she still wished if only he could have called her.
That night the dinner was quite silent.
Olny two of them.
Sheetal tried to hit some topics here and there but in vain.
Both were missing akash dearly.
It was the first time he was out on an assignment after marriage so was even more difficult for sheetal.
It was already 11, with heavy legs she moved towards her room, adueing good night to sheetal when se heard her phone ringing.
It was definitely akash.
She knew it.
Enthusiastically she picked up the phone.
Yes, it was akash.
“Hi mom, how are you.”, she heard his voice.
“I am fine akku, how are you, when did you reach, how was the flight..”,
“Hey wait wait mom, everything is fine here I already told sheetal about everything, you don’t worry and take proper rest.”
She found her flurry of questions interrupted.
“Yes, I got my eye sight checked..”
“Hey sorry mom, actually I am in a kind of hurry, is sheetal around there, I cannot reach her phone.”
“ya, wait for a second, sheetal!! ” she called
“Akash here”.
Sheetal came running and almost snatched the phone from her hand.
She knew it was her time to move back.
“May be I would talk after sheetal, I have to tell him so many things,” she thought to herself and waited for her time, which actually never came.
“You want to talk to mom?, she is here.”
She heard sheetal whispering.
She couldn’t here what akash said but saw sheetal disconnecting the phone.
She started for the bedroom.
She knew the night was going to be long, and indeed it was.
There were no calls further that night, no further photo album sessions, just staring in the deep abyss, as if assimilating his entire life in those two eyes.
Next day was Sunday, and she knew sheetal wont be going to office.
Her sleep got interrupted by the knock at the door.
The maid was here.
“Akash babu ka phone hai,” she announced.
“Sheetal uthi nhin kya, unko do”, she replied politely.
“madam toh kab kee uth gayee, but akash babu aapko pooch rahe hain,” she said while handling her the phone.
She couldn’t believe her ears, but whatever it was, se felt the tinge of happiness mixed with emotions surging out from her heart through her eyes.
“Good morning mom,” she heard him saying just the way he used to say few years back.
“Sorry kal meeting mein jana thha toh baat nahin kar paya,
Kal maine Sheetal se baat kar lee hai, aap dono ka passport visa ke liye agent lene aa jaega
Main aap logo ke bina nahin rah sakta.
As she heard him she couldnt but but feel her moist eyes.
“haan aap kal eyetest kee baat kar rahi thhi?,” he asked.
“Haan beta….”
Then started a conversation that went on for ever, atleast she felt so.
Standing behind the doors, sheetal smiled as she saw her talking on phone.
“I wont let her miss him, atleast till the time we don’t go there,” she said to herself and moved out.
posted by loku_blogs at 6:53 AM
4 Comments:
This was lovely , loku.
I loved it more so because I have always noticed mothers feeling left out and lonely once their sons undertake that path of a 'Happily Married Life'.
I have often tried to put myself in their shoes,wondering what it must feel like to let someone you love the most be equally loved by another woman -his wife per se.
I guess there are times when you know you should not be feeling something and that you are wrong to be feeling this way...yet you cannot stop feeling it.
It is a feeling of complete loss of rational thinking mixed with a strong sense of helplessness.
Just to add again, this is something I have often thought about myself and was glad to read that there is someone else too (a guy !) who managed to think this way .
:)
I think its upto us how we make the old friends and parents feel when someone else comes into our lives.. It might happen sometimes that the other person may or may not be that sensitive about your relation. And I believe its your relation at the end of day, and God also helps those who help themselves...
Generally a touchy read and touched me.. :)
Its a very sensitive topic you have written about and in a really amazing way.
waah..Amazing post!!
Cheers!!
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